Declaring My Intentions

Declaring my intentions

as part of

Beth Kempton

Winter Writing Sanctuary

I am declaring my intentions to the world – well at least to this safe and sacred space.

This has been a long time coming, but it is all good. The time is now. The only moment that matters is this one. And in this moment, I am choosing to be my authentic self. And I am choosing me first.

Slight tangent, but that is what I love about my mind – the tangentiality of it! Wow, a new word. What has been a huge strength of my mind has also been a slight weakness – I will call it a distraction – as I think weakness could be deemed as negative. And I prefer to not use negative words, unless absolutely necessary.

I had gotten into a great routine a couple of years ago, up early – 4 or 5am – and I would start writing. And I produced a lot of words. I alternated between fiction and non-fiction and was quite adept at each. You see I have been writing since I could. And I love it. It is a huge part of me, getting my words down on paper, exploring my brain/mind through those words, and creating great characters and stories with my pen/fingers.

But my mind’s ability has also been a slight distraction (oops) because I tend to get lost in my mind, in its power.

And the routine of writing every day has slightly paused. Yes, I still write ‘stream of consciousness’ writing / brain dump – call it what you will. I was writing like this before it ever became popular, and it helped me make sense of a lot of my teen years …

But as for my fiction and non-fiction – they took a bit of a back seat – yes, I have been writing in both genres and creating lots of words, but the words are on pages in my room – and unless they are out in the world, they will remain words on pages. For no one to see.

Anyway, I said that I am declaring my intentions …

And without further ado – I want to be remembered as someone who made a change in the world and not from an ego perspective, not for fame or fortune, though that might happen! But I want my words to mean something to someone, or many someones.

Deep down I know I am here to change lives, perspectives, beliefs. And I will do that through my words.

And I will do it this year.

I have always known I would write a book. Most people have. And many people will.

I have been doing a lot of inner work to get to this point in my life where I am ready to take that next step. Yesterday I saw myself on the edge of a cliff – I have seen this many times. A metaphorical cliff – a journey/step to the unknown. But I saw myself take that step – and I teeter-tottered for a moment, and then I pulled back.

Later, chatting with two very supportive fellow writers, I again saw myself take that step, and this time I was supported – hands under my arms (armpits – an icky word). Right now, 24 hours later, I feel good energy again as I know that I am supported and protected right now – I wrote a piece on that a few years ago.

Anyway, the time is now. I am ready to share. Myself, my intentions, my writing.

It is time to live my truth, one step at a time, one moment at a time, one word at a time.

And that involves, for some part, getting my message out to the world – in the form of books.

While chatting yesterday, it came to me that I have lost my creative spark – it is just invisible at the moment – but that is okay – it needed a rest, because it will be busy for the next while.

I have given myself, initially, two weeks to get back into my productive and proactive writing routine. I am ready to share. Myself. My words. My books.

I want to be remembered for my words.